Gone Too Soon

We can't plan life. All we can do is be available for it. - Lauryn Hill

Lost a friend in a blink of an eye.

Death is a natural thing in life; it’s a reality that every human being need to face it one day. Drunk Driving accident, one of the most top causes of death all around the world. For the last few years all countries had launch a campaign regarding anti drink driving as its statistically proven been increasing every year.

Last week a dear friend of mine passed away because drunk driving and I am fully aware this common tragic accident will sometimes happen in the society but it never crossed my mind it will happen in my circle. Apologies if I sounds ignorant. 

I must admit whenever I heard people passed away in any various causes, I do feel sympathy and sad but never ever felt lost. But when I received a called and heard a sobbing sound from her. My heart stops when she explains to me that our dear friend has gone. I was shivering, my heart squeezed can't breath and suddenly part of me was being swept away, I felt empty. In my mind still trying to convince my self that this is not possible and this cant be possible. Because if death took him, it should be me who go first instead of him cause I was born earlier than him.

While processing the horrible reality, I start hated him to leave me so soon and honestly there were times that I questioned God, of why he can do this to a fairly young boy, because he certainly still has a bright future ahead, his mom who loves him...his sister and brother who still need his guidance and of course us who still need his companion. I know it's not right to question the Creator's decision, but I just can't help it. I know I need to stop, people always say good one always go first even in inexplicable way. So I reached to the understanding now of why God brought him near to us..because he is truly an amazing friend during his time on earth.

Back in my mind I always expect that he is around and will be around for the longest time. Now since he has gone I still can sense his presence but he is drifting away from my heart. And I don't like this feeling, imagining that I can't remind him to stand near me, stroke his shoulder wanting his attention or even call him because he is unreachable now. 

I cherish him dearly like the way he cherishes all his mates. Its my privilege to know him. Rest In Peace my dearest friend. At the moment I choose not to believe that you were gone, and I am sorry for that..but I will eventually need to accept it and move on. Wishing that he would pop into my dream regularly so I can see his friendly face again and won’t be missing him badly. I am trusting that he is in a good hand now since he is up there in 7th heaven, but  because of my selfishness now I am praying asking God to allocate him one stair below at 6th heaven so he can be nearer to me. I love you my dear friend. Hugs and Kisses.

"Stay alive. Don’t drink and drive"

Soulmate

Never, never listen to anybody that try to discourage you. - Mariah Carey

Ever wonder, does soulmate really exists in this world, does a person can get one soulmate or several soulmates (give me the benefit of doubt)? what kind of criteria to be a soulmate? does soulmate equivalent to life partner? is there any life span for soulmate? what is soulmate anyway?

Soulmate: is the theoretical person with whom one has a feeling of deep or natural affinity, similarity, love, intimacy, sexuality, spirituality, or compatibility. (as per wiki)

(Deep Sigh) This is my personal opinion base on self point of view, please dont miscontrued this allright :) Well. I'll start that Yes, I believe soulmate do exists and it only be one soulmate throughout our chapters in life. As you know human is a complex creature..which sometimes can get confuse and dont know what they want..they fancy this or that...they detest this or that...they can somehow adapt and without realising they convince themselves that they are like this or that according to the society expectation....then it will strike when they met a person who can communicate both ways, listen and understand their well being without further explaination and question know exactly who they actually are...they felt connected..amaze of how this could happened for all their life they need to adapt or trying to fit in...and at that moment both parties can say out loud..that they are soulmates. Its very rare situation and sounds like fairy tale...wondering how on earth one person can understand fully despite they just met and just starting a conversation. It will never be logical. Lucky you if you have found your soulmate :)

I believe that everything happened for a reason, soulmates often will meet up in the right time with right amount of past experiences. Tough luck but the fact soulmate can be not the one you spend your life with . ..because eventhough that person is suitable to be your soulmate but it might not suitable to be your life partner..this is only cover half of the whole package that is your basic spiritual needs nevertheless we cannot denied that we are living in both spiritual and physical, and with the current era..more more needs require in human.  People grow each person face different condition, emotion, situation, friends family involves, back ground education effected and past experiences reflected. All revolves in a person mindset. Once theres similarity of these experienced they will feel spritual satisfied and can proclaimed themselves as soulmates. And the rest of their need will follow eventually.

Kindly be reminder that all human relation including soulmate (no exception) still need to work things out...you need to put an effort to tune left or right so both parties can have the same frequency. If you allow yourself a chance to experience this having soulmate is GREAT....your soulmate can sublime you beyond words. He/she can be your shrink and psychic in the same time.


Always remember if "that person" is belong to you "that person" will belong to you.

Further explaination of the above, here is the last letter from soulmate to her bestfriend after their life span is up:

Hi BESTFRIEND,

First, please take care of her and many many thanks for your support to her all this time. I was very clear that what I did was wrong and unfair to her (me falling in love with her). I had spend many sleepless night even when I was with her thinking what can I give her, I knew I couldn’t give her much, as much as I want to show her the rainbow after a rainfall, to smell the morning’s dew and the sunrays streaming through some cloud patches. I knew than that I was extremely selfish of me to fall in love with her, which unfortunately she was the “Soul mate” that I was always and had always wanted deep down in me. From our very conversation, it could be anything mundane, but we seem to be able to understand each other PERFECTLY. I had always yearned for someone to understand and able to communicate both ways fluidly, the same level of intellect, which unfortunately I found in her. Everything I ever wanted was in her. I had told her many a times, fate deals a cruel cruel card on us.

We just fell madly madly in love with each other. She shows me what loving someone unconditionally was, and I will never forget that, but end of the day we are all humans after all. We wanted each other more, wanted to be with each other every single seconds that we can catch hold of, we hold every single seconds to our chest ever so tightly, hoping that every ounce of our muscle will stop time slipping through the tiny gaps of our palms, this is how much we treasure and cherish those moments that we are together. We could feel each other intensity without ever murmuring a single word. How can one still think so much and miss that person so much, it saps all of me just trying not to think of her, till this very moment as I am typing this mail, I am still concern and worry about her(Please don’t misconstrue me that I am advocating anything). You can brush it off but truth be said and known. At times we always marvel at each other that how can we ever truly fall in love with each other given our differences, it still amazes me to this day when I think of it but it actually did, we ACTUALLY FELL IN LOVE with each other. Her trust in me has never been misplaced nor betrayed, that I can assure you.

I will set her free because I love her, she is an amazing strong and clear girl (she will get over me in time) but meanwhile please assist to look after her and keep advising her what is wrong and rite in relationships or choosing the rite partner for her. Like me she is strong headed at times, just need a little gentle nagging and she will come to her senses. I must summon all my strength to hold myself away from her and believe me is not easy, because she is a remarkable and absolutely adorable woman to me. I think I was being very selfish to her rite from the start. Is time I must do the rite thing for her if I truly love her. Is very easy for me to just pick up and call her or drop her e-mail but it is a mountain to climb just to abstain myself from doing so.

No doubt we didn’t spend really much time or go many places with each other and we do the most mundane things in life together, sometimes edging even on “boring” things but I can go on and on and on about us when we are together, is just that wonderful yea….

Kindly try to remind her to take her V Caps for her morning sinuses, iron supplement for her blood deficiency, calcium supplement for her bones, jogging, sorry sounds like a nerd or grandfather but this is for her. Please help me to remind her for me, am ever indebted to you.

And lastly I never took her love for me as dust ever….

Thank you very much, please help me to help her…. Ever grateful

Regards,

Soulmate

Palio

 He wants only to rest and to have a little peace. - Luciano Pavarotti

A casual Tuscany Restaurant in Resort World Sentosa, located at 8 Sentosa Gateway, Level 2 Hotel Michael, Singapore. I had paid my visit here some time ago to celebrate another special day of mine. When I walked into their bright tuscan orange coloured, geometric composition like colourful checkers flooring, mosaic tiles pillars and  half moon built in mirror gave me the mixture feeling of Mediterranean and Italian atmosphere. I must admit Iam not familiar with interior design however I can say that this would be one of a very warm cheerful restaurant that I ever dine. Their bubbly interior can certainly enhance my appetite and mood.

And here are the dishes:

Salami Lover Pizza, great thin crusty base topped with cheese and tomato sauce and salami all over.

Mushrooms Risotto, mushrooms lover and cream...hard to resists for sure

Ravioli another dish that can make your saliva drools hehehehe this would rather a personal experience

We had a pleasant dinner in their spacious restaurant, love the ambiance with their open concept kitchen and friendly services for sure. The price range is still affordable for an Italian Restaurant. Average per person SGD 30-35.


Mamma Mia!

Opening Hours:

Breakfast: 7:30am – 10:30am 
Lunch: 12:30pm – 2:30pm
Snacks (Pizza Only): 2:30pm – 6:30pm (Daily)
Dinner: 6:30pm – 10:30pm (Sun – Thurs)
Dinner: 6:30pm – 11:00pm (Fri, Sat, Eve of PH & PH)


 

Till We Meet Again

Believe in love. Believe in magic. Hell, believe in Santa Clause. Believe in others. Believe in yourself. Believe in your dreams. If you don't, who will? - Jon Bon Jovi

Reunion: A social gathering attended by members of a certain group of people who have not seen each other for some time.

Theres only 2 groups of people for this. They would be either terrifying or exciting in facing a reunion. Honestly I am with the terrifying club, not something that I can be proud of, however I am trying to overcome this phobia because it’s certainly not a good habit of possessing it. Attending reunion is actually a good thing, despite it can make you human again, it can as well expand your circle of friends and if you are not being hard on yourself you actually can have a great time.

Recently I was given a chance to attend my university reunion. My good mate encourage me to attend by sending me reminder through all channel of communications, email, txt, msn you name it. At first I am very hesitate as usual.  So after a delusional optimism that my mate given me I've decided to go... Convicing myself, C’mon, how bad it could be? And frankly speaking, now in my late 20’s I am most certain that I had encountered even scarier moment than this.

Here I listed down of what I've learned so far in attending the reunion:

1. Be polite and maintain eye contact

2. Yes, you might know by now that in the matter of fact of this event you will face some person who will give an impression of: throwing a lame joke about you, bragging about themselves, comparing or being sarcastic, please don’t get work up and decided to leave the party immediately, instead you can switch to be an attentive listener (well you can choose to listen or not but dont forget to do constant normal nodding plus a soft smile)

3. Pick up some simple diplomatic words to use againts some negative aura such as "ces't la vie"

4. Be generous to give a sincere compliment, example "It's been ages..you look terrific" (this is not fake...1. it is true that it's been ages, and 2. people tend to change to be better as time goes by, theres a saying goes fine wine get better with age)

5. Always give a positive comment or response

6. Drink moderate amount of alcohol, I know it can be tempting to drink more since its on the house...but it will be wiser not to give an opportunity for your former classmate to give you a new nickname

7. Offer drink or food to your fellow friends if you want to get one for yourself, not to all, just the one you standing close to

8. Brush up your knowledge in politics, fashion, music...everything that happening in the world at the moment, trust me it can be handy :)

9. Dont be too occupied in texting or playing with your mobile. Eventhough you are bored...Open up and try to make a little conversation, they are not goin to bite you

10. Feel great of who you are, boost your confidence by wearing a fabulous yet comfortable cloths, from head to toe…from inside to outside. Be neutral with fashion trends

Have a great fun for your next reunion event! Be yourself because you are awesome just the way you are.